April 28, 2010


...because I cannot tolerate to people over here anymore. I might not have been meant to be Turkish. Yes, it is the truth that I love the city itself. I haven't seen a city in my whole life that is this all-around, colorful, modern yet historic, up and down, dynamic, varied, etc. Turkish culture is a quite complex one. I'm not humiliating anyone, though. I've been in and out of Turkey since the age of 16. I have found myself closer to the Nordic culture where minds and souls are free. Where people live the life itself. However, in Turkey, where there is a complex and collective culture, people try to interfere in each others' lives without any logical reason. Self-actualization doesn't play an important role. You have to actualize others' expectations in order to actualize yourself in words. What kind of a hella fuck is this?

I am almost a graduate student. I am busy with settling my life. I am trying to give a wise yet enjoyable rotation to my life. I do my best to differ myself from the majority by my personality, behavior, lifestyle, etc. And I ask myself, "Can I do these things over here the way I want it to be?" Hell no! There are always loads of people trying to block you, trying to put an obstacle in front of your way. I consider myself strong as an individual. However, you are strong as a group. My self makes up a person. Your group makes up a person. Though, it doesn't make up anything. You laugh at me, trying to lower me, and enlarging your ego or jealousy. Does it work? No. You were laughing at me in the street as a group. You get home and add me as a friend on Facebook as a person. I have never understood why you have been laughing at me by now. Do your cellulites or suffocating skin due to heavy makeup make you laugh?

I'm leaving you all alone over here. Take your culture, take your group, take your fucking collectivism, take your lipstick, take your cellulite, take your boyfriends/girlfriends, take your caprices, take yourself, take everything. I'm putting a one more brick to my construction, called lifetime. Do you think you could fuck around with me that easily, you pussy?

Sorry for my harshness, but my pussycat target audiences' English level is not enough to understand the core idea of what I have written over here, anyways, so I don't feel guilty at all.

I am fine now. Zen.

(Further note)
First of all, I want to thank my friends for their attention on Facebook to my note! However, some of you took this note like I have been offended by something/someone. Nothing has happened. This was just a volcano within me which has been awaiting for a long while and it is ready to explode, that's all! :) Thank you again. I appreciate your thoughtfulness! :)


I just applied to the IELTS test. The examination date is May 29th. Exciting, eh? Lately, I've been considering that Sydney would be a better choice in comparison to Melbourne. The bigger a city is, the more opportunities I have. I could travel to Melbourne when I'm in Sydney and if I like it there, I could arrange something in Melbourne after my master program in Sydney. There are only 59 days until my graduation ceremony. Oh my god, these are all so fucking mucking ducking exciting! I got two reference letters from two professors in hand. Normally, this is enough, but I want to get more. Good luck.

April 26, 2010





April 24, 2010


The process began. I have been trying to collect reference letters from my professors lately and I already got two, but I want to get more. More later on.

I have been thinking what I would be cooking when I am abroad. Will I be feeding myself fast-foodishly? Hell nein! I try new recipes according to my taste and I get some good results - really! Take a look at this dish - I call it "Veggie Shrimp". The main ingredients are these ones.
Do not forget to add olive oil, tomato sauce, and wok sauce while cooking. Actually, any flavor, seasonings, or spices according to your taste.

April 21, 2010


I have been waiting for acid rains due to the volcano ashes in Iceland, but no rain, hm.

Okays, I'm going to my appointment with the consultant in 1 hour. I'll be putting more and more emphasize on these programs:

● University of Technology, Sydney (Master of Design)
● Macquarie University (Master of Arts in International Communication with Master of International Relations)
● University of Melbourne (Master of Global Media Communication)
● Royal Melbourne Institute of Technology (Master of Communication)
● Swinburne University of Technology (Master of Design - Communication Design)

I decided it would be non-sense to enroll in a program, like graduate diploma, graduate certification, etc. It is much better to do master. At least I will have a higher title. I need to move much faster, but still I shouldn't rush. Cya.

April 20, 2010


There is a new response : University of Technology, Sydney (Master of Design). This response seems more like a robot has replied to it, but it is still fine or I am too optimistic, whatever. Because in the beginning it says : Comment by analyst. Lol, someone has analyzed my situation, woah that must have been tough for him/her. The analyst says the cost of Master of Design program at UTS is app. AUD 25,000 for 1.5 years. Moreover, the analyst says nothing more, but the course director will be attending to an event at UTS so I can discuss my academic experience with him...Hm okay. But it is my fault because I haven't told the analyst that I was in Istanbul. Anyways, all in all, I know that I can apply to Design, Graphic Design, etc. programs without having Design background as long as I have a portfolio related to Design. Good good.

I'm not searching for Graduate Diploma programs anymore. I search for master programs.
I have an appointment again with the consultant in this week.

April 17, 2010


Heyya heyya, there is a good new from Graduate Diploma program of Graphic Design at Royal Melbourne Institute of Technology (RMIT). First of all, I should mention that the program director's email is super duper sympathetic! It doesn't feel like a robot or automatic email replier at all. 

My lovely program-director-koala says even though I have been studying Advertising, it is possible to study Graphic Design if I represent a proper portfolio that demonstrates my interests and abilities. That's what I already have. She says "Our program is one-year-full-time for int'l students. Our classes run in the evenings. They are very practical and cater for mature students wishing to either formalise, develop or shift their skills to gain employment within the Graphic Design industry." I think the idea of studying in the evening is quite cool. It gives me the opportunity to work during day and make/save money. And this part kills me "I hope we might see you at RMIT in the future" Arrgghh I haven't seen her, but I love her! 

Well, I shouldn't rush. I should wait for the other responses from other schools. Actually, I have this idea in mind. For example, if I study 1-year program of Graphic Design in Melbourne and if I like Australia at the end of the year, I might enroll to an other program, like Fashion Business in Sydney. It is just a further possible idea, though. Come on good news, come to me!


Hi Alpi viewers must have been surprised now because there are no visuals anymore! However, Alpi keeps saying Hi - in a different way. It is just I decided to concentrate on my Australia adventure. I thought - why not writing the progress and all of the stuff? Some others might be thinking of moving abroad, too, so "Hi Alpi" may be an other source for those koalas. I will be calling everybody as koala from now. At first, my buddy-koala Grace told me to get a Holiday Working Visa, so I arranged an appointment with the agent and went to talk with him. He said it would take so fucking a lot of time to get that visa, approximately 3-4 months or more. I said, hell no I cannot wait for that long, I wanna' go right away. Then, he suggested some schools which is a shortcut of going to Oz. 

I have found some goodie master programmes in Sydney and Melbourne. I got in contact with those schools and I still wait for their responses. I have been searching for master/diploma programmes in Graphic Design, Design, and Communication. As far as I could find, the good ones in Sydney are Enmore Design Centre, UTS (University of Technology, Sydney), University of Sydney, and some TAFE programmes (Vocational schools). On the other hand, I have found these in Melbourne : University of Melbourne, University of Victoria, RMIT (Royal Melbourne Institute of Technology), NMIT (Northern Melbourne Institute of TAFE), and Swinburne. TAFE programmes are super cheap and they prepare students to higher education - they are vocational. I will try to choose an institute or design centre, though. More research on-going. There are still two months to graduate, though.